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Sunday, February 26th, 2006

Subject:still struggling
Time:10:42 pm.
and so the struggle begins. the unrooting of habits formed over three years. clearing the dusty closet, letting in sunlight (gently please) for something new (someone new). the carpet of my memories is caked with dried mud - i have to hang you on the line and beat all the longings out (how they cling). i have to open all doors and all windows - let the fresh air ventilate, let the light assault all the hidden hopes i harboured for you.

your darkness haunts me. i want to be your light, i want to soothe. i want to be the softness that you need in your harsh reality. i want to be your sanctuary - the place you run to.

i want to caress your face until sleep takes over your consciousness.

but its all over. three years of neatly tucking all the wants in secret corners of my soul gave me edges, and hardness.

no more looking back, i will face my path and forge ahead.

march 2005

[feather my wing]


Friday, July 8th, 2005

Time:11:41 am.
Love, how many roads to obtain a kiss,
what lonely wanderings before finding you!
Trains now trundle through the rain without me.
Spring has yet to come to Taltal.

But you and I, my love, are together,
together from our clothes to our bones,
together in Autumn, in our water, at our hips,
until it's just you together, me together.

To think it took all the stones borne by the water,
flowing out of the mouth of the river Boroa;
to think that, held apart by trains and nations

you and I had but to love each other,
with everyone mixed up, with men and women,
with the earth that nurtures the carnations.

-pablo neruda-

[feather my wing]


Thursday, July 7th, 2005

Time:9:46 pm.
a man with no hope, is a dead man

[feather my wing]


Wednesday, July 6th, 2005

Time:5:17 pm.
yayyyyyyyyyyyyy
father spending whole family to a classy dinner tonight
yayyyyyyyyyyyyy

i shall have wine!

[feather my wing]


Friday, June 17th, 2005

Time:10:16 am.
quien bien ama tarde olvida

he/she who loves truly, forgets slowly

[1 feather][feather my wing]


Monday, March 21st, 2005

Subject:how many times?
Time:10:02 am.
in pain, a phoenix(faenyx) is born

[2 feathers][feather my wing]


Saturday, March 19th, 2005

Subject:strangers
Time:11:57 am.
i am just a girl, he is just a boy
at first we were more
now we are just that.

[3 feathers][feather my wing]


Wednesday, July 28th, 2004

Time:4:05 pm.
question: why is everyone blogspotting?

[2 feathers][feather my wing]


Tuesday, July 27th, 2004

Subject:today's interesting links of the day
Time:4:50 pm.
Airline Uniforms

How Many Words Per Minute Do You Read?

[feather my wing]


Monday, July 26th, 2004

Subject:a hamka update : nev's new apartment 7-5 (an introduction to the rooms)
Time:10:19 am.
weekend activity : dressed up the rooms in mood colours
hours of sleep : less than five
furniture theme : one word - tribal. strong earth tones matched with dark wood.

introducing :

Blood Lusting
kitchen. lovely dark red, as if some vampire seductress (seductress? must be me!) passed by and stained the walls with her deadly kiss. matched with beige tiles, the area has a whole tuscany/mexican vibe to it. i can't wait to cook in it! when can i when can i? hse warming party hamka style! (meaning lotsa wine with a few brain-dead-non-commital-no-need-to-digest movies) err, but don't stain nev's new earth couch k?

Naked in Sahara
exterior of the kitchen, sort of part of the dining area. also known as Juliet's Wall (gigglessss) because it's so gorgeously painted by me and the colour is as sensational as bare flesh is, and i am so in love with itttttt

Sun Room
the living room. we didn't paint this, the apartment came in a washed out yellow colour, therefore lovingly nicknamed The Sun Room *grin*

Sky Blue Mentos Room
nev's room. computer section is extra happy-sky-blue-day colour. all we need to do is stick cotton balls all over his walls and ta-da, we have summer-happy-grining-madly kinda sky look. only bodies clad in bikinis or undies are allowed in.

Casanova Mystique Yam Room
tide's room *winkwink* shekshay hushed shadows of lilac. auntie says it looks like yam ice cream. tide says yam milkshake. yam whatever, once you walk into this room your hips goes on Auto Sway Mode (trademarked and probably pioneered by titan) and and eyes into Compulsive Flirt Slits. only naked bodies allowed in.

next weekend : moving stuff in!!
come hse warming night, we bring in mood items to deco the place up as hse warming gifts k! :) fabrics, tribal totem poles, wine wine wine, purple condoms, self potraits, etc etc

update: kitchen+dining area is now called Flesh & Blood because of its red and tan colour

[2 feathers][feather my wing]


Tuesday, July 6th, 2004

Time:9:33 am.
raphael just wrote, he met gabi twice when she's in swiss and he told me that she's back in melaka alreadyyyyyyyyyyy

i miss gabi, giggles. *spit-spits like her*

[2 feathers][feather my wing]


Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004

Time:5:51 pm.
melaka this weekend peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[1 feather][feather my wing]


Friday, June 18th, 2004

Subject:this is for chewa
Time:1:59 pm.
http://mirrored.flabber.nl/britney.lookalike/

[1 feather][feather my wing]


Friday, May 7th, 2004

Subject:this is for nev
Time:1:53 pm.
http://drliew.net/share/foldcloth.swf

[8 feathers][feather my wing]


Friday, April 30th, 2004

Subject:today's link of the day
Time:10:33 am.
The World's Funniest Collection of Masturbation Synonyms

How To Be A Ninja

lego porno

plush erection

vulva puppets (please click and read intimate descriptions) (or read this)


lesson of the day : there's nothing you can't find on the net

[1 feather][feather my wing]


Thursday, April 29th, 2004

Subject:addictive puzzle game
Time:9:55 pm.
http://www.albartus.com/motas/

[4 feathers][feather my wing]


Wednesday, April 28th, 2004

Subject:okay, this is too much
Time:2:08 pm.
Matching Bottled Water With Food

if you enjoyed that maybe subscribe to the Water Connoisseur Newsletter

[feather my wing]


Subject:random links to amuse you
Time:10:16 am.
http://www.airlinemeals.net/indexMeals.html
http://www.infofreako.com/jad/pencil/0list-e.html
http://members.aol.com/rides911/accidents.htm
http://www.avert.org/aofconsent.htm
http://uglyweddingdress.com/main/weblog.php
http://www.thebathroomdiaries.com/
http://www.desktopproject.com/
http://www.finewaters.com/Bottled_Water/Index.asp
http://www.worldlicenseplates.com/

[1 feather][feather my wing]


Monday, April 26th, 2004

Time:8:35 am.
haha, check this out

http://www.wibsite.com/wiblog/dull/

[1 feather][feather my wing]


Monday, April 5th, 2004

Time:10:45 am.
*deep breath*

hamka mid week dinner?

[1 feather][feather my wing]


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